So another Year has passed away...Looking back makes me laugh and cry on the experiences I have gone through. It Seems I have almost seen everything I could...Waiting to See What more has life stored for me...
I Have learned many things, some of which I would like to share with myself and with people who are reading this blog.
Lets Start with the new things first..you may have heard it from many...Love Someone have guts to accept it..and do not think about what others will think about you...Its your heart and your feelings, nobody else has the right to judge them right or wrong..this decision or judgement is entirely yours. Trust me its very difficult to pile up things in your heart and see someone you love in front of your eyes daily and curse your inability to accept it. Such things are easier said than done. Lemme tell you a secret..I have not been able to accept it since 2 years. I don't even know if my feelings for someone are true or just an infatuation or an attraction. Its natural to get attracted to someone when you are single :)
After this May be nothing more to share as it may become more of a philosophical lecture or something..Lets Talk about something else..Hmm So got to watch some great movies like Barfi - which actually taught that silence can speak better than words..its difficult to find true love but it isint impossible. You just need a perfect heart to love and other things are secondary.
About People - Its still so difficult to understand them. People stab you on you back and now a days on your front and then become sweet to you and expect you to forget things that happened in the past.
As usual so many people flushed my trust in the toilet and I am a fool enough to be normal with them just because my stupid heart is still emotional and forgiving.
Since the past 3 years I have wished to celebrate my Birthday with my someone special but alas..maybe these birthdays have been the loneliest of all other days in the year and guess what I have not been able to share my thoughts with anyone..feeling that someone might just consider me stupid..After 19 days people would be welcoming 2014 happily with a blast and some people like me would do the same thing but with disguised happiness.
Its easy to break relationships but difficult to maintain them and I don't know why I have loved tough things in life. Trying and keeping up with people I really want to be with...I mean I have tried to become a good friend and have been successful too but there is no one I can say is my true friend. Now I feel different - Go to Hell..Now Its your turn to try and keep up with me and maintain that relationship with me..If you dont have time sorry - I am also busy, its been enough of me trying my bit to keep up with you..
The Year is coming to an end along with my hopes to meet my better half with whom I can share my loneliness and maybe his loneliness too...Trust me there is no bigger punishment in the world expect of being alone.
My Love, I am looking out for you...come to me and I will make sure we make our life worthwhile. I do not expect an expensive gift - Just a rose would do. No need of sending big messages - the words " I love You" will suffice. Also when we fight - Just hug me and kiss me...there is no place of sorry between us, I will understand you want to make everything right. Above all...Just spend some quality time with me..this would be all we need to make our relationship healthy.
At 1:00 AM I am sitting alone on lappy feeling contented having shared my feelings with someone. Of-course my words will not reciprocate, but I am still happy to share my heart out..There are so many things still left unsaid..which are better hidden maybe.
With this I end this note wishing the readers a Happy Life and Blessings from God
Regards
Nidhi Agarwal
I Have learned many things, some of which I would like to share with myself and with people who are reading this blog.
Lets Start with the new things first..you may have heard it from many...Love Someone have guts to accept it..and do not think about what others will think about you...Its your heart and your feelings, nobody else has the right to judge them right or wrong..this decision or judgement is entirely yours. Trust me its very difficult to pile up things in your heart and see someone you love in front of your eyes daily and curse your inability to accept it. Such things are easier said than done. Lemme tell you a secret..I have not been able to accept it since 2 years. I don't even know if my feelings for someone are true or just an infatuation or an attraction. Its natural to get attracted to someone when you are single :)
After this May be nothing more to share as it may become more of a philosophical lecture or something..Lets Talk about something else..Hmm So got to watch some great movies like Barfi - which actually taught that silence can speak better than words..its difficult to find true love but it isint impossible. You just need a perfect heart to love and other things are secondary.
About People - Its still so difficult to understand them. People stab you on you back and now a days on your front and then become sweet to you and expect you to forget things that happened in the past.
As usual so many people flushed my trust in the toilet and I am a fool enough to be normal with them just because my stupid heart is still emotional and forgiving.
Since the past 3 years I have wished to celebrate my Birthday with my someone special but alas..maybe these birthdays have been the loneliest of all other days in the year and guess what I have not been able to share my thoughts with anyone..feeling that someone might just consider me stupid..After 19 days people would be welcoming 2014 happily with a blast and some people like me would do the same thing but with disguised happiness.
Its easy to break relationships but difficult to maintain them and I don't know why I have loved tough things in life. Trying and keeping up with people I really want to be with...I mean I have tried to become a good friend and have been successful too but there is no one I can say is my true friend. Now I feel different - Go to Hell..Now Its your turn to try and keep up with me and maintain that relationship with me..If you dont have time sorry - I am also busy, its been enough of me trying my bit to keep up with you..
The Year is coming to an end along with my hopes to meet my better half with whom I can share my loneliness and maybe his loneliness too...Trust me there is no bigger punishment in the world expect of being alone.
My Love, I am looking out for you...come to me and I will make sure we make our life worthwhile. I do not expect an expensive gift - Just a rose would do. No need of sending big messages - the words " I love You" will suffice. Also when we fight - Just hug me and kiss me...there is no place of sorry between us, I will understand you want to make everything right. Above all...Just spend some quality time with me..this would be all we need to make our relationship healthy.
At 1:00 AM I am sitting alone on lappy feeling contented having shared my feelings with someone. Of-course my words will not reciprocate, but I am still happy to share my heart out..There are so many things still left unsaid..which are better hidden maybe.
With this I end this note wishing the readers a Happy Life and Blessings from God
Regards
Nidhi Agarwal
